Did you ever consider, oh i don't know, doing it yourself? Stop relying on meds if they aren't working, or do something in ADDITION to them?
Look, you don't think other people here deal with depression? or think about ending it? I know I do. I deal with it every single day. I don't whine about it. i don't come here and lay it out for others. I do, what you, or anyone, should do. get off your butt and DO SOMETHING, or hell, sit on your butt and do something. but do something, don't dwell on it. that only makes it worse. it may give a little bit of comfort to talk about sometimes, even if people who don't go through it don't understand, or just say "get over it", but the best thing to do is focus your attention on something else. take your mind off of it.
Trust me, i know, it can't always be helped, it can come out of nowhere and smash you in the face. thinking the wrong things can trigger it, and it can make you think the wrong things. a vicious cycle. and it can and will drain all motivation from you. its like it feeds on it. but it can help if you keep busy. watch tv, get a hobby, play a game, go out, listen to music. find things that you can focus on.
How do you think i even got into these books in the first place? there were three bad times for me, right before i go to bed, right after i wake up, and when i'm at work cause i've done the work so long i go on automatic and that leaves my mind to think of other things, which, as you know, is the worst thing you can do. i can't do much about the first 2, but for work I tried changing positions to keep the work fresh, but they are arses about it. I tried listening to music at work, and that helped for a bit, but after awhile it became background noise.
then i hit on the key, spoken word. it started with comedy albums. because you need to put a part of your brain to following whats being said to keep up it means your attention is else where. it helped, alot. but i only had a few so i started downloading more. i actually have quite a large collection now. and a few of the comedians had auudiobooks, like geogre carlin and al franken. they were better because they were longer.
and i would look for more. as i did, TP's name kept coming up under comedy, i never heard of him. and only heard the name discworld in passing. (i honestly confused it with ringworld) i skipped on it for a bit. choosing others first, but eventually i said what the hell and tried the first one. I liked it and said screw it and DLed the entire series (they were up to making money at the time i think, or possibly the one before that). I've gotten lots of other AB since, from him and various other authors, but thats why i have them (and i enjoy them) and why you won't see me at work without my Creative Zen MP3 player.
Its not perfect and it still hits me, especially since i got my own place two years ago. but it works. i found a way to cope. if you find things you enjoy, keep doing it. fight it back, don't let it get ahold of you, find more things. you see something that makes you down, look at something else. you start going down that mental path, find a way to take a detour before you get to weak to do anything else. But for god sakes don't put all you attention into it, or try to use it as a crutch. you'll only hurt yourself more.
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